the holy cross

the cross is my sure safety
it is the cross that i ever adore
the lord's cross is with me
the cross is my refuge

st tom aquinas

in hospital with me

from my hospital bed i type to You
here i try hard to embrace the Holy Holy Cross, and as st Thomas Aquinas find that The Cross is my refuge
to surrender all to You oh sweet Father what joy is hidden in this, a joy too great that overflows from my miniscule being
joy in abundance while i cling to the Holy Holy Cross...what is this contradiction?

may i bless Your name at all times
tiny me

'i will bless the Lord at all times
his praise continually on my lips

proclaim with me the greatness of the Lord
let's acclaim his name together'

psalm 34: 1, 3

Singing Over the Abundance

This is constantly on my mind Lord, that not only do you know what makes us happy, You know what makes us even happier and You desire to give us this- joy in abundance - if only we are open enough to You.

"Out of the depths You cry, 'Come and be satisfied', Father You sing, Father You sing over your children. Let us see through Your eyes, we are your great delight, Father You sing, Father You sing over your children." Matt Maher (Cd Alive Again)

"I did not choose You, You have chosen me, to go bear fruit abundantly; I did not choose You, You have chosen me, Oh God in Your mercy, pursue me." Danielle Rose (CD Pursue Me).



xxx

Step 1: Our Best

I am very angry. My finger is just about to press the 'send' button on my mobile.
Help me Lord I cry.
You say, Is that the best you can do?
I stop short. No. I can do better than that. I delete the message and move away.

Only when I've done my very best and can physically do no more, only then do you warmly welcome my cry. First and foremost You trust us to do our very best.

Bless us all Lord. xxx

You act on our behalf

"When You did awesome things which we did not expect, You came down, the mountains quaked at Your presence. For from days of old they have not heard or perceived by ear, Nor has the eye seen a God besides You, Who acts in behalf of the one who waits for Him." Isaiah 64: 3-4

Lord, You know our deepest deepest desires - when we have no clue what these are. We think we know, we think we have it all 'worked out' - then You give us things outside of our plan - 'things which we did not expect'. Then we realise that what you have given us, is YOUR plan and is just what we want - the very core of our happiness - given to us, without our even asking for it.

Two small unexpectancies all at once. How can I thank you for this love you show us? It is impossible to do so properly - physically impossible. How small I am.
May we sleep at your feet tonight - the five of us :)
Maria

Pursue Me

I bow down to the ground, my hair spills all around
I am kissing your feet, I am wiping them dry because I believe that:
You deserve to recieve all of my life, anything less Lord would not be enough,
I'll lavish you Lord with all I have received, I will spend my whole life to annoint you as King.

..and

As you lay down your life, for the Body of Christ
You will stand in my place offering sacrifice for the sheep

Danielle Rose (in Pursue Me)

A dog or more?

Lord, You know we have a dog now. Silga. The ugliest dog I have ever seen. The smelliest also. It is such a test for me. Ivan loves this creature. I am strugglling Lord - teach me through this dog. Teach me, teach me. Grant me the grace to learn from a dog. To open my family to welcome even a dog. Gladly welcome this creature and carry out all the work involved with great love - and silently.