Delight in weakness

Dearest, dearest Lord.
I am so weak, but I rest in You, and am so happy like this. This is a grace you have given - to delight in my frailty, my vulnerability in You. Oh what a sweet sweet taste is this. You ask me, 'am I not always more glorious than you could ever imagine?' and all I can answer to that is yes, yes sweet Lord.

As I sink into the waves

Fearful me again :(
You know my greatest fears, and only You can take them away.
They are so beyond me, I'm tired Lord.
In my mind over and over again I hear the words
'Your life is not yours for losing',
'You belong to me',
and it gives me such consolation.
Teach me that I have no claim on my life,
and so it is not mine for losing.
Please teach me till this truth is as the air I breathe.

'Oh God come to my aid,
Oh Lord make haste to help me'

Adoro te devote

(St Thomas Aquinas)

1. Godhead here in hiding, whom I do adore,
Masked by these bare shadows, shape and nothing more,
See, Lord, at thy service low lies here a heart
Lost, all lost in wonder at the God thou art.

2. Seeing, touching, tasting are in thee deceived:
How says trusty hearing? that shall be believed;
What God's Son has told me, take for truth I do;
Truth himself speaks truly or there's nothing true.

3. On the cross thy godhead made no sign to men,
Here thy very manhood steals from human ken:
Both are my confession, both are my belief,
And I pray the prayer of the dying thief.

4. I am not like Thomas, wounds I cannot see,
But can plainly call thee Lord and God as he;
Let me to a deeper faith daily nearer move,
Daily make me harder hope and dearer love.

5. O thou our reminder of Christ crucified,
Living Bread, the life of us for whom he died,
Lend this life to me then: feed and feast my mind,
There be thou the sweetness man was meant to find.

6. Bring the tender tale true of the Pelican;
Bathe me, Jesu Lord, in what thy bosom ran---
Blood whereof a single drop has power to win
All the world forgiveness of its world of sin.

7. Jesu, whom I look at shrouded here below,
I beseech thee send me what I thirst for so,
Some day to gaze on thee face to face in light
And be blest for ever with thy glory's sight.
Amen.

the holy cross

the cross is my sure safety
it is the cross that i ever adore
the lord's cross is with me
the cross is my refuge

st tom aquinas

in hospital with me

from my hospital bed i type to You
here i try hard to embrace the Holy Holy Cross, and as st Thomas Aquinas find that The Cross is my refuge
to surrender all to You oh sweet Father what joy is hidden in this, a joy too great that overflows from my miniscule being
joy in abundance while i cling to the Holy Holy Cross...what is this contradiction?

may i bless Your name at all times
tiny me

'i will bless the Lord at all times
his praise continually on my lips

proclaim with me the greatness of the Lord
let's acclaim his name together'

psalm 34: 1, 3

Singing Over the Abundance

This is constantly on my mind Lord, that not only do you know what makes us happy, You know what makes us even happier and You desire to give us this- joy in abundance - if only we are open enough to You.

"Out of the depths You cry, 'Come and be satisfied', Father You sing, Father You sing over your children. Let us see through Your eyes, we are your great delight, Father You sing, Father You sing over your children." Matt Maher (Cd Alive Again)

"I did not choose You, You have chosen me, to go bear fruit abundantly; I did not choose You, You have chosen me, Oh God in Your mercy, pursue me." Danielle Rose (CD Pursue Me).



xxx

Step 1: Our Best

I am very angry. My finger is just about to press the 'send' button on my mobile.
Help me Lord I cry.
You say, Is that the best you can do?
I stop short. No. I can do better than that. I delete the message and move away.

Only when I've done my very best and can physically do no more, only then do you warmly welcome my cry. First and foremost You trust us to do our very best.

Bless us all Lord. xxx